FINALLYLYLYLYLY!

F inally I managed to officially submit my thesis! I can't describe how thankful I am to God the Almighty who sent His angels to assist although there were many obstacles stopping me from submitting! I am definitely thankful to all ppl out there who have helped me with my thesis! All those who helped in motivating me! Thanks a lot! Jesus Christ - My Lord and Saviour Dear Lord, You are the first I should thank. I want to give all my blessings to You. Words cannot describe how much you have sacrificed for me. I can't express enough my gratitude to You, Lord. For You have given me wisdom and understanding every time when I am in trouble. Thanks for guiding me throughout my journey. Although I am still waiting to submit my thesis, I believe and trust and have faith that You will not fail me. Even if I fail, there must be a good reason behind everything that happens. You remind me in Roman 8:28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to His purpose. Therefore, I believe in You, Lord. I commit everything unto your hands. Thank you so much from my heart. Dr Fauziah Hassan ~ Chair-supervisor Firstly, I would like to express my gratitude to you for being so thorough during supervision. I am very sure that God had sent you to polish, shape and mould me into a better person. I have learnt through all that you have taught me. And I truly appreciate your effort in reading my thesis. I know how awful my language was. You have repeatedly remind me that my language was bad, and I am thankful of that because I know that is the way you express your concern to me, I am also very sure that you want me to pass so badly. That's why you kept on correcting my thesis. It was not easy but I learnt not only academically but also spiritually and morally. I am more matured now and I am quite sure that I will be able to do my PhD easily after going through all this. I would also like to apologize for my behaviour, I know that I am a stubborn girl. I will try my very best to change and learn to take up other people's advice rather than being hard-headed. Again, thanks for everything from the bottom of my heart. Miss Sharifah Zainab Syed Abd. Rahman ~ Co-supervisor Hi Cik Pah, I don't really know how to describe how much I have learnt from you and how much thankful I am to you. You have helped me so much. You are an angel God had sent to motivate me, reminding me about God by telling me that getting a Master Degree is not the most important thing in life. But the process and the journey to reach that stage is far more important than that. Furthermore, you kept on reminding me that the purpose God sent us here on earth is to make us realize about the greatness of His creation. You are really my source of inspiration. I listened to every advice you gave. I trust everything you say. You never condemn me, you laugh and cry with me. Your "I Love You" is so meaningful to me! I am more than thankful and grateful to God that He had sent you to guide and accompany me. You even tell me that I am good when I thought of giving up on myself. How fortunate I am to have you by my side. I can't thank you more. You are the first person that comes to my mind when I am happy or sad. You are just so great! I love you too!!

inception actually happened!!!

I have to record this. I experienced inception a while ago! Amazing! God is with me even though i was in the dream of my dream during my sleep from 8.40am till 9.40am..I dreamt of evil spirit disturbing me in my sleep and I could not wake up. I was disturbed but I managed to walk but not in full control. I shouted my sister to pray to cast away the evil spirit. She was in the position of watching movie in her laptop outside my room which is exactly the same like what she is doing in the real life when I woke up. She came in and prayed for me like she is a pastor who is strong spiritually. She hold my head and prayed, casting away the evil spirit in the name of Christ! I told her that I can feel the evil spirit leaving me going further and further from me. She said she will accompany me by sleeping beside me. Then, slowly, I woke up and thought I that I already wake up just now. It was really amazing as I had a dream in my dream while I was sleeping!

Finally...

Finally, my supervisor signed for me to submit my thesis. This is the best moment in my life where after the long run since 2007, I know that I am not intelligent but I know that I am hardworking enough in doing my thesis! I am happy till I feel like flying! It's been really hard and I think I am confident that I can go through this last stage which is viva! I praise God and thank God for the blessings! And God has protected me with angels. I thank God for that! Of course I am so happy to have Cik Pah and Irene with me! They are true friends! And I am so happy to have Anwar too! For he has been with me throughout my tough road. I enjoy his company. And without him I may not have punching bag! Thanks dear. Obviously, my deepest appreciation goes to my mom who has never stop praying for me. She has been there for me with her nonstop prayers! I thank God for giving me my parents! And also to my grandma, she has been praying for me too! Amen to that! I had never felt so happy before! Thank you Jesus Christ for your abundant blessings, wisdom, knowledge and understanding.

Unexpected and Surprising Event in My Life!

I never expect to get this from my boss! I am talking about the big boss of all mankind - God the Almighty! And I did not expect to get this from my boss Pak Ariff too! I am so happy that I get this award which I never thought that I actually deserve this! "Student Development and Participation Award". I thank God for everything that He has granted me! My tagline "I can do all things through Christ who give me strength." Phillipians 4:13. Amen to that! Thank you Jesus! My one last wish is just to finish up my Masters and I believe that I can have it! I am very sure and confident that I can have my Masters with all the hard work! Because our God is with me! Amen!!

The Worst Hassle I Have Ever Encountered

This is when I was accused for not doing my work. I think the whole office was accused of not doing their work due to a person's stress. I was really very upset, I stayed back after work with four of my students just to do what is asked to do till almost 9pm last Thursday which is on 19 May 2011. To appreciate my students' help, I give them a treat at McDonald, Bangi. I parked my car exactly in front of PKNS building, in front of the spotlight. Around 930pm after we have done our dinner, we went back to my car. one of my student, Najib said, "who did not close the window of the car?". Then, we realized that my car's window was broken. The thief took away Ahmad's bag. Luckily, his bag was taken but only book, calculator and pendrive were in the bag, it is lucky that Farid's bag with notebook was not seen by the thief. We were shocked during that time, I tried to calm myself down and told my students that we should report this incident to the police. Unfortunately, no one knows where is the police station, we have to ask people around to reach there. After waiting for a long time then only the policewoman served us, she thought that I was a bad Malay girl with red hair, then after checking out my race only she started smiling while talking. Nevertheless, after stopping at the police station, we were asked to go to another police station because there is no CID in that branch, and only at Kajang's police station that they can take picture and investigate. How can this actually happen?? My goodness, this is what you called a police station??? After all the hassle, we reached UNITEN at around 12am. All the hassle eventually end there.

My Princess

I Just love this drama so much. My all time favourite actress, Kim Tae Hee; and my all time favourite actor, Song Seung Hun. I watched this drama many times already, I am still watching it now. It has been so long I never really sit and watch a drama series, repeating it like what I used to do during "Meteor Garden" acted by F4. But, this is a recommended drama series. I am so into this series. Especially the fashion part, the princess changes lots of dresses. Most of her costumes are cute and lacey dresses. So beautiful, all her dresses suit her. I think she is the only one who can wear all these. She has a beautiful face and sharp features. Both of them are so natural, in the series, not like they are acting. That's why I am so into this drama series. Again, I fell in love with Korean Language, would like to learn again. Lastly, this is a must watch drama series. It will make people happy!

Drama Series Review = A+++, 100%

New Hair Colour

My new hair colour, this is the first time I coloured all my hair. Normally, I only highlight my hair. This time, I like it. I am not sure why but I think this hair makes me look fashionable. I always like to be fashional but I am just too fat. I hope that I can be as slim as I was when I just started my Masters. I gained my weight through stress. I ate too much. I couldn't resist food when I am stressful. I always hope to have a healthier body. My wawar said, "Baby, you are not healthy, do you know that, it adds your wrinkles, you lost your smooth skin, you have bad breath sometimes and lots of pimples, I am not complaining about all that, I just want you to be healthy. I care for you a lot." I was hurt when he first said that, but after a while, I realized that I am really not so healthy as compared to before. Therefore, this hairstyle will indicate a new "Evelyn Yeap"! What do you think? haha! My wawar said, this is beautiful, and I do think so. Hope you think so too!

Redang Runaway Vacation

"Redang = Haven = Paradise"! I can't believe that Redang can be so beautiful. I even hoped to get a job there to work and dive and snorkel all the time. It was my best vacation I would say. I never felt so great after any vacation before this. I don't feel like coming back at all especially to think of the thesis that I have to edit so many times, it was a never ending task to be done. I hope that I can stay there forever. To have a room under the sea like the picture shown. And of course I hope to stay with the person who own the same flip flop that I have forever. I really hope that one day we will be together forever. I know it will not be easy but it is what I am hoping for all this while. He is the person that I want to live with for the rest of my life. I never felt that way before. I am very happy to have him with me. I pray everyday that my dearest one will one day be accepted by my family. However, if they do not want to accept him, I will never give up and I have already decided to be with him. Only if he leave me and go. Then, I have no choice. Lastly, I would want to recommend Redang to everyone who read this blog. A place must not be missed.

I Care

I always care, I am not telling that I am a kind person, but I am soft-hearted. I can't see people got tortured, even animals. I watched on animal planet about people in Cameroon eating bushmeat. They eat monkeys, gorillas, etc. And worst, they eat chimpanzee which act like a human being. Basically, they remind me of killing each other and eating each other (cannibals). I care and I worry that one day, human eating human will happen again. I am hoping that this won't happen.

I just finished evaluating my students' informative presentation just now. one of the pairs were presenting about how people in ancient time kill and how they kill now. Another pair wwas presenting about "Honour Killing" like how women were killed by their own brothers or fathers after being a rape victim. This is ridiculous man. I can't imagine how these people get their mind set that way. Women are like slave to them. This is still happening around the world. Please...I really hope that one day, these people will get their punishment from what they have done!

Stressful yet Not Giving Up

I am stressful, more than stressful! I don't want to give up! Like Bieber said, "Never say Never"! I know I am not a genius but I am a very hardworking girl who works really really hard to make sure that everything is perfect! I am not sure what else I can do after editing it for more than a year and more than 10 times. Is there anyone out there who did their master for more than 4 years? OMG! This is sick! It is a waste of time! What she really wants from me? I have nothing to give her! Why she keeps on dragging me? At first, I thought I am not good but now I think she is having mental problem as everyone has read and agreed that it is a good piece of work. But why I still can't send in? No matter what happen, I know this is a challenge in life and I am not gonna give up! That's it! Enough is enough!

Blog! Blog! Blog!

Thanks to Ezmeer, for reminding me that I actually have a blog of my own. I should have blog continuosly. No one follows my blog because I keep my blog quite privately. I am happy that finally I chose to stay in UNITEN rather than leaving and accept the offer in UPM. Even though one of my friend said opportunity comes only once but I still believe that opportunity can be created. So, I think I have chosen the right choice to stay in UNITEN as I love the environment quite a lot. I love my office, my personal corner. I am just so into my own territory sometimes. But I think this is not wrong. There are 10 things that ask me to stay in UNITEN:

1. God's Will - most important!
2. I have my own room
3. I have quite known to the people
4. The bosses already acknowledge my performance
5. My beloved students of course
6. Started sport again (not easy to start without friends)
7. Friendship
8. Higher salary after Masters
9. Near to my BF of course
10. Used to UNITEN

See, so many reasons why I should stay!

Even though there are people with big mouth said, "Eeeee! Tak Malu!" But who cares! I don't work for those people who are having bad and smelly mouth all the time! I am staying because of God! Because of my parents, my future, of course my students!

My aim is to make sure that my students remember my teachings so that they can apply what they have learned and be successful at one point in time in the future but of course, I hope during that time, they still remember me as their favourite teacher who had taught them a lot about life!!!! That is my aim, my vision!!!!

All the best Evelyn! You can do it!! :)